Westworld: I Always Have
Published on September 28, 2018 by Paul Ciano
No one else sees it, this thing in me. Even I didn’t see it at first.
And then, one day, it was there. A stain I never noticed before. A darkness, invisible to everyone, but I could see nothing else. Till finally, I understood that the darkness wasn’t some mark from something I’d done, some regrettable decision I’d made. I was shedding my skin.
The darkness was, what was underneath. It was mine all along, and I decided how much of it I let into the world. I tried to do right. I was faithful, generous, kind, at least in this world. That has to count for something, right? I built a wall and tried to protect you, and Emily. But you saw right through it, didn’t you?
You’re the only one, and for that I am truly sorry, because, everything you feel is true. I don’t belong to you, or this world. I belong to another world. I always have.